Full-Blown Suffering: My Battle Against the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It began on a overcast weekday morning in September 2016. I was working as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense pain erupted behind my one eye. It was followed by rapid jolts, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the pain eased and then returned with greater intensity. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took paracetamol, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The attacks returned frequently that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. The autumn months were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the train, full-blown agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a GP eventually referred me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

This condition typically begin with intense pain behind one eye that lasts for several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks usually start with sudden, severe pain focused on one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Episodes come in clusters, every day or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. I have the episodic form, which occurs in periodic cycles; others have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the lack of long pain-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the intensity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the figure dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition worsened through her youth. Alcohol in her teens, similar to many triggers, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often interpreted her episodes as drunken behavior. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.

Still, the inability to organize daily activities around erratic pain took its effect. She particularly hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write experts in a book on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Ancient healing records suggest bizarre treatments for what modern observers would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a separate condition, with treatments ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the initial comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by global medical committees in 1988. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel which delivers blood to the head. Prominent specialists in treating the disorder note this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the results of a research project for which they had induced attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The data, published in a major journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they recovered.

In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent four surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Specialists say delays in diagnosing and managing happen because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” one says. He works by eliminating other common head pain conditions, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A detailed patient history is crucial: on which side do signs occur? For how much time? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Certain features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But many first go to A&E or are given unsuitable treatments.

A charity trustee, 78, has experienced the condition for most of her life, although she has been free from an episode since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked me through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack passed.

National guidance on management advise that patients are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific medication delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the bouts of some individuals.

But consultant specialists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the cycle determines the approach.” Brief bouts with infrequent episodes are handled with abortive therapy only. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the area of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity.

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Christopher Shelton
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